My 2 Angels

(Originally posted on Wednesday May 2, 2007)
To catch you up on my *life* here is the shortest version that I know ~ my husband and I started trying to get pregnant in April of 2004 and by July, we were pregnant! However, by the end of August, we learned that our tiny little bean was no longer with us. We took a few months off from it all, and by February of 2005, we found out we were pregnant again!

Things were going along beautifully and at 26 weeks along, we learned that our 1st angel had passed away inside my womb. On July 21 at 10:15 AM, Quinn Catherine Valerie was born still ~ we saw her tiny little body and we were in awe of her. How neat it was to see this little girl that had been kicking and poking at me.

Of course, we took several months off before even thinking of trying again so that we could grieve and heal as a couple. By that November of that year, we started and it took us a year to get pregnant again ~ I was scared out of my tree! Somehow though, I was able to bond with this little miracle and enjoy every second of being pregnant again.

At 20 weeks pregnant, we learned that our little baby wasn't developing properly and was growing weeks behind. The next day, I had to have an amnio done to rule out any chromosomal defects ~ fortunately, there wasn't, but that didn't explain why she was growing so small. This being the same way my pregnancy with Quinn ended it scared the snot out of me......I felt so terribly hopeless and helpless, but I still clung to faith that she would make it.

On March 26, we learned of our other daughter's fate at almost 23 weeks along ~ she had passed away too. I was devastated....there was no way that this could have happened to us again; are we not good people? Do we not deserve any happiness in our lives?? Peyton Ann Marie was born on March 29 at 4:45 PM and she was our tiny little angel ~ perfect in every way!