Yesterday I realized that it was Quinn's original due date and it was no wonder why I was feeling so under the weather. It's also no wonder why every July and October I feel generally "blah" ~ now, I have every March to include in the list of months to dread and hope to skip over. It's almost a subconscious reaction to hide these off days deep inside of me.Strangely enough, my husband and I were talking and wondering about what it would be like to have our firstborn 2 year old daughter running around...........and we were smiling bitter sweetly. We both have always come to the conclusion that she would have taken on most of my features (poor girl!) ~ when we envision her as a toddler, we picture her resembling me when I was a child ~ generously curly red hair, brown eyes and chubby cheeks.
**SIGH**.....now that the bittersweet after taste has worn off, I am saddened knowing that we will just never know. I guess that's all we will ever have ~ visions, hopes and dreams.
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Quinn ~ I hope you had a beautiful day in the clouds sweet girl!!!
I was thinking about her as a toddler the other day ... I wish there was a way to know girl. There should be an email link to heaven. Someway to at least get updates: playing well, learning to run, still not eating peas.
((((((((HUGS)))))))))
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