No More Heavy Lifting

(Originally posted Thursday, September 6, 2007)
I was talking to a friend tonight about how this blog wasn't exactly "uplifting"; in her usual quick wit (you know who you are) she simply said " it's time that you let someone else do the heavy lifting"......*GASP*.......*GASP*.........*GASP*........



~ THANK YOU...thank you from the bottom of my heart! You got it! You got it when no one else seems to ~ not even me.

You see, right now I am in what I like to call PSM (Plastic Smile Mode) and I am hating every single second of it. I am drowning my own feelings, thoughts and beliefs just so that I can please others. WHY? It certainly doesn't make me feel better and how in the world am I going to feel better if I am choking back what I really want to do?

What I *really* want to do is scream; scream that I hurt just as much as I did less than 6 months ago. Scream that I drag my feet into every new day that I enter.

So....alas, a new motto ~ no more heavy lifting! If I do decide to lift something, I will be smart and not lift with my back ;)