Summer Feelings Part 1

Despite me working a lot, I have been quite emotional and super testy this summer. I find that I am quite irritated by people. Most of the time it's because of sheer stupidity on their part ~ news flash people, I am still sensitive to remarks; it's not going to go away, you know. I do know how exciting it is to be a mother; oops, I mean I can only *imagine*. Once again, no need to rub it in and then whine about lack of sleep or whatever the dilemma of the day is. The truth is, I would trade you places any day ~ you know, you can see how it feels to know that you may never have a child to call your own and I can live in your ignorant bliss. Hey, I think it's only fair ~ oh wait, silly me, no one wants to trade places to see how truly awful it is and how it feels.

The sad truth is that isn't even the beginning of how I have been feeling. Angry, disappointed, hopeful, and sad are all part of the kaleidoscope of feelings. Frustrated and disappointed seem to fall into the same category, sadly enough. I believe that is always going to be a feeling that I will always feel; by anyone and everyone. I find myself extremely infuriated by several people in my life; the sad thing is that they are much too self-absorbed to even notice after all of these years. I am at the point that if they can't be bothered to realize how much they have hurt me, then I need to stop any type of relationship with them. After all, I am the one that has put things on hold just to be there for them.....where were/are they when I need them the most?

Right, forgot....stuck in their own world.